Most nights Ethan goes to bed easy and without a fight. We read books, sing songs, snuggle in his full size bottom bunk, then give lots of kisses and say “I love you. Night night” at least a dozen times. It’s something that Chris and I look forward to every evening. Not only because it’s the close to a long day of being momma and daddy to a wild boy, but because we intentionally set aside time to love on each other as a family.
There are nights though when the last goodnight doesn’t bring a sigh of relief to not have to hear mommy one more time. Tonight, Ethan cried for me. And not the I’m-not-tired-and-just-want-to-play cry. It was the I-need-you-to-give-me-your-attention-and-snuggle-me-more cry. I let him be alone in his room for about 5 minutes before answering his pleas to come lay with him.
When I opened the door, I found him sitting on his step stool that he uses to climb into bed. He reached his arms up, looked at me with sadness and tears, and said,
“It’s awight. I gotchu. We snuggle.”
I scooped him up, despite my aching back, and laid down next to him, comforting him, saying the very words he previously quoted. I watched his whole body become peace filled. All was perfect in his world. He smiled and touched my face. After a few minutes, I readjusted my body and he immediately reached his hand out to make sure I was still right there. He patted my back and said, once again, “I gotchu”.
I’m so thankful that my son knows that when I come into his hurting and emotional situations, that it really is alright. That I’ve got him. Makes me feel like I’m doing something right haha.
I love the way that parenting has brought me closer to understanding who God is and His heart for His children. Ethan reminded me tonight that whenever I’m overwhelmed, crying, and looking for some snuggles, I can reach out, pat around, and find that God is still right there. To remind me that it’s alright. That He’s got me. And that when I recognize His presence, I am peace filled. 💙
“For the mountains may depart and the hills be removed, but my steadfast love shall not depart from you, and my covenant of peace shall not be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.”